I feel like I am stuck in a never ending spiral............Is down up, up down..........right left, left right....nothing left. Spent. The thoughts spin around until I feel as if this must be what it feels to be mad. However, I am a person who may have "flights of fancy" but am grounded in reality practically 99.9 percent of the time. That is why the last year of my life has been so challenging!
I literally feel like I am in uncharted territory. I look for answers to life's questions in song, prose and movies. I have reverted to the music of my youth in an attempt to have something familiar and "safe." At least I am grounded in familiar. I am unaware if I can find safe again anytime soon. It's like the song Free Falling by another childhood friend, Mr. Tom Petty. I was a good girl. Still am. Still trying to live a good life.